之前有太多太多破碎的承诺，
让我再也不相信“我答应你”~

所以，
我喜欢你的承诺，
因为你说到做到。
" )

昨天听了你的那些话，
让我更想保护，照顾你，陪着你。
因为我了解，
需要把全部的不满和难过吞在肚子里的感受。
所以，
这让我更了解你。
我也承诺过了，
我会静静的陪在你身后。

明天就是我的大日子。
谢谢那些祝福我的人，
虽然到现在只有几位，
但是我能感觉你们的祝贺。
我会加油。" )

给你，
我祝福你.
你是个好人，所以你们一定会幸福的。
" )
之前的一切，我打从心里感谢你！
谢谢你..
我也会幸福的。
虽然这需要看会跟我在一起的人能不能给我幸福，
*你，会带给我幸福对吧？*
但起码，不管怎样我都会带着笑容的度过每一天。


我终于吃到了我的田鸡粥！
超好吃的！
辣到吊扎~！
哈哈哈哈。。
但，也是我最近吃得最贵的一餐！
哈哈哈哈。。 等我拿工钱，我再约你们去吃！
等我哦！

可是，
那里的马路好危险！
都没有红绿灯。。
@@
还好有你在。" )
羞！


啦啦啦。


对啦！

我陷入爱河了。

很多事情同时的发生，
让我有点喘不过气。

当然，
你给过我的美好时光，
我会记得在脑里。
但对你，我再也不抱然希望。
就在我决定的那天，你以是我的回忆。
" )

人们常常说，
如果我的梦或愿望能实现，那该多好。
但，我竞有点不能赞成。
因为对我来说，还蛮不可思议~
其实，那是因为我害怕。
因为，梦终究是梦。
所以我宁愿藏在心里面_

不许回报，
不许什么，
你的笑容就能弥补我心里全部不安。

接下来的路，
会是怎样，我不敢多想。
但，我也不会有后悔了。。
因为，你以说出口，我也成知道。
就足够了。")

你~

眼角的泪 你给过谁
伤透了心 也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边

如果说爱 已不可为
那我宁愿 藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎麽会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着 犹豫不决
没准备 跨越爱的界线

怎麽会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美



你和我 拥抱瞬间

不後悔 这暧昧

星光唯美

把爱放心里面

" )

since donkey years ago..
i have the urge to eat



frog porridge!



那位好心人要带我去？
*appealing eyes!*

当你找不到我时，你会有和感触？
过些时候，
我就有回答了！
" )


今天，

是个很特别的今天，
是个很难忘记的今天，
是个很害怕的今天，
也是个很甜蜜的今天。
最重要的事，
是个我就算死了，也不会有后悔的今天。")

不知接下来的路会是怎样，
但我知道，
应该会满辛苦的！
女人的第六感！哈！
不管啦~
我是强者，娃！


秘密！

每个人都会有。。
应该都是不能说的秘密！ *顺便帮老公打歌！哈哈哈哈*
但，往往都有会一个人和你分享你那不能说的秘密。
你会希望他听懂你，
然后了解你，
最后，支持你！
因为，这能减少你的罪恶感！！
但起码，有个人在你身旁陪着你，聆听你所要说的一切！！
虽然是个小小的陪伴，但我相信以足够了！
因为，人类最重要的就是陪伴！

所以，
若你没有一个能诉苦的对象，
想想看！那会是多无助？
孤独！彷徨！ 辛苦！ 烦恼！ 寂寞！

天啊！
你不会想脱离这些痛苦吗？
若是我，

我超想的！

这世上，
没有一个人是孤独的!
因为，没有一个人会得到全世界的排斥！
世界那么大，
一定会有个人了解你的！
但是，就重要！
你必须让她走进来~

打开你的心窗，你会更开心的！
相信我！
因为。。 你值得！" )

blog song changed..
AGAIN.
currently addicted to this new singer, 小宇！
" )

can u imagine how broke i am how?
as i used last 2 months of my studying life to totaly concentrate on my studies..
i totaly ingored my work and earn no bucks.
seriously,
NO BUCKS at all! "(

i pratically waved good-bye to all the good movies..
no sugar daddy..
waved good-bye to the IT fair..
no nice parents who are willingly to buy for me..
waved good-bye to the only chance to go overseas with my class!!
ouch.
ouch.
ouch.

back to .. "can u imagine how broke i am how?"!
i actualy decided and 下定决心 to break open my piggy bank!!
it has been with me for months lar!!
SOBS!
well.. at least i haf some bucks now. " )

LISTEN UP:
i so dont wanna borrow $$ from any of you guys.
so.. yah!
don you tink? ..
its time for me to grow up and b independent!
don lend me $$ lar!!
deal or no deal?

anyway..
im having a fixed job soon..
my intake for vitaminM will be sightly increased.
but even before that..
i oready haf a LIST of items to buy!!
hahahaha.


dang.


money not enough!!

10am.

went down to Haw Par Centre to sign my contract with starhub.
i was late for around 10mins.
i guess.. its doesnt kill much rights?
hahahhaa.

i jus had a clearer view of my job scope ..
and i haf no idea how i ended up in finanical.. -_-
anyway..
since the decision is made..
i will defintely strive my very best till PA gives me a reply.
hahahaha.

now tt im working in town..
i can meet my clique straight after work!!
YEAY!! hahahaha.
darling, bud, PL! date me outs mans! " (
on the condition that.. my vitaminM increase. hah!

will be starting work next monday..
31 march 2oo8. " )
see you soon, colleague jensen!

oh.
just wanna complain like a normal Singaporean..
i went to this clinic for checkup.
and waited for around 1hr after getting a Q number ..
before deciding to approach them..
then they realise they lost my appointment card!
no wonder i was tinking why others came later but went in 1st.
-_-


and first time in my life..
the doctor is so young and handsome.
i guessed my heart pumps uber faster when he hears my heartbeat!
SHY! hahahaha.
with that spilt second..
i forget that i was SUPPOSE to be angry with the receptionist.
lalalalala.
MANS!
i should have just seduced him.. and i might be a TAI TAI!!
double SHY!!
hahahaha..





you're on my heart.. _ just like a tattoo.
just like a tattoo.. _i'll always have you.

i just made an important decision in my life.
i agreed to the propose..








of being a fulltime in STARHUB.


thank you for all that made me feel better after making this huge decision.
specially to PL, amy dear, hart, 老头 and PT!
you guys made me feel lots better...

i dono why.. but..
i just don feel comfortable lar.
mayb cos i never tot of being a fulltime?
and most importantly..
landed up in a office work?
hmmm..

anyway.. decision is made.
so yah.
thanks for all. =)
not forgetting those who splashed cold water. hor laopo? hahahaha. =p


way back into love.

once again..
我被你放飞机了。。


我真的累了。


23 march 2oo8,

THE END.

life is so like rollercoaster.
but..
i am not discouraged!
because, every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward.

there are uber many times where i asked myself,
what am i expecting?
and why am i doing all this?
the ans is always unknown.
i guess some parts of my wire in my brain got SOT somewhere!

decided to let everything go and continue walking forward.
in the middle of difficulty, lies opportunities.
therefore, i think i should boarden my vision more.

sadness isn't painful..
it's trying not to feel sad that hurts.
its time to wake up, justine!

别再跟我哈啦
我不是个傻瓜
说谎就要付出代价
是应有的惩罚

别再跟我哈啦
你被当成笑话
自己造成的那尴尬
我也没有办法

有人这么跟我说。。

人生就像强奸，反抗不了 。。
就要好好享受。

工作就像轮奸，你不行了。。
就换别人上。。

月薪就像月经，一个月不来就完蛋了！

听了第一句，
我还骂他的比喻真烂！
可是在听下去。。
好像还蛮真的！哈哈哈。。
傻傻又可爱的老头！


还有另一个人这样的安慰我。。
当我跟她说出我犯的一个大错，
他竟然回我。。
"im sure it happens for a reason"
简简单单的一句话，就安抚了我那心急的心！=)

sometime when you have nothing to do at home..
you start to wonder your thoughts around.

for me..
i start to clear my things.
while tidy-ing that little cupboard of mine..
i saw a box of familiar stuffs.
got it outs.. and start to review every single item in the box.
and i swear..
its not helping me at all..

memories gusted back so quickly..
wacking my tiny brain like 100km/hr whenever i got a item outta the box.
omg.
its been 5years already!
so long.. hahahaha.
some of the things are oready turning dusty and yellow~!

but yet..
still sweeten-ing my heart and mind just like that those times. =)

do you have such a box at home?
go ahead. take it outs and review it.
its kinda fun. =)

好烦啊！



从来没想过会要做出这么难的选者！
烦死人了啦！
都没人来听我诉苦！
我快疯掉了。。

its been 4years since we last met up.
i don understand why they bother waiting 45mins under my block..
die dying wanting me to tag along.
so.. i went along.
since its been 4years since we last met up.
through out the whole damn conversation they had..
its was abt their JOB!
don understand why did i went!
totaly dont u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d !!



anyway..
having to see them for that slight hours are fair enough.
=)


stop psycho-ing me lar.
i wont join you guys de.
xiaoyan! jiayou wor. =)

there are so many times i tried to tell you..
but u were there to listen.

just came back from interview.
surprisingly,
wasnt really nervous ever since i step out of the house.
i guess cos i wasn't realy keen in hafing the job?
mommy added a "good luck ah" before the door closes infront of me.
i smiled, tucked my bag and walked downstaris.

when i reach the destination..
it was 1.55pm.
i was glad that i wasn't late.
looked at myself the last time in the mirror and sigh of cos..
smile at myself and arranged my hair the lastime and went it.

the world is realy small.
theres this guy smiling at me while waiting for the lift,
being courteous enough..
i smiled back lar.
so qiao that we are going to the same level.
and so so qiao that..
he is actualy my interviewer.

stretching out his hand, "I thought it might be you when we were in lift!"
qiao rites? =)
i was glad i did not adjust my bra or pluck my nose hair while in the lift with him!
HAHAHAHA!

i guess they kinda like me..
hence they offered me a full time position.

sigh.

mommy and erjie keep scolding me..
cos i did not ask any tiny weenie bit abt my salary.
i mean..
i was suppose to ask?
hahahaha. hmmmm...

suddenly got the urge..
the urge to be in a relationship and be loved dearly.
guess i have not been recieving too much of a love recently. " (


突然好像被人疼，
被人呵护！
怎么说，我还是个正常的女人嘛！
哪个女人不想被人保护呢？
对不对？

obviously!
my clique have not been doing a good job in showering me love.
thats why im hafing this damn stupid urge!

where are you guys??

stop being so busy cans?!
don phone me also can..
sms? tag? email? friendster comment?

*appealing eyes!!*


hahahaha.
kidding. "x

don wory.
its jus merely time of the month.
boyfrend is doing a good job in keeping me accompany.





to: whom it may concern.
im feeling better le.
fever has bid farewell..
and im back to chocs and soft drinks!!
a-hahahaha!!



我是捏不死的娃娃！" )

as mentioned from previous previous previous entry..
i black-ed out at work time yesterday.
but everything was alright after the crowd came in..
cos i was busy doing orders, preps and packing the damn stocks!

ah.
forget abt yesterday.

so..
i was taking my temperature yesterday on the bed..
becos i laid on the bed once i felt damn uncomfortable.
its was 37.4dc.
asked mommy whats the normal human temperature..
and 37plus was her ans.
so i thought i was alright and continued to hid under my blanket to sweat it outs.
and of cos..
i swallowed tonnes of water down my throat!!

i woke up this afternoon,
feeling quite alright.
so got myself prepared cos my elder sis treated all of us us to watch DISNEY ON ICE.
excluding my parents though..
they rather to go dating you see.

during the show..
i ate popcorn, 1/4 of swiss cheese burger and twisters - tomato flavoured.
but i was too late when i realise that i was feeling uncomfortable the previous night.
hah!

back to the main point!
i was asking a number of friends jus now..
to see whether they knew the standard normal human temperature.
got ans ranging from..
36 to 36.2 to 36.9 to 37plus!
so i continued asking arnd..
when PT send me this website..
http://www.hpb.gov.sg/hpb/default.asp?pg_id=865&aid=233

aint he sweet? hahaha.

but..
this sweet act came too late..
as i realised..

im boiling at 38dc now! -_-







will i be hospitalized?
hahaha.
one of my wish cans!!

hapy 20th birthay

baobei~ ")

may all your wishes come true.

and of cos..
everlasting love for you and otes.

though i failed to organise to meet you on this very special day of urs..
but my greetings and wishing are very lesser. ")
希望你幸福！
不要忘了我这个朋友喔~
爱你。

third party

no offence to anyone out there.
i just want to voice outs how i feel..
i was working yesterday..
doing breaded prawns like for 2 hours.
was so alone and facing all the prawns..
my tots began to wonder around..

was listening to this particular song..
where this word third party appeared so clearly and loudly across the kitchen.
den i suddenly came to realise..
in this 21years of my life..
there are so many times i was a third party.

third party of laopo and spencer.
third party of darling and bud.
third party of PL and irene.
third party of hanshen + kent and honey.
third party of vincent and honey.
third party of regular and girlfriend.
and the list goes on.. ..

there are so many times things happened so quickly tt i hafen got to realise i was a third party.
not only to relationships..
friendships too.
at the split second when all these run through my mind so wildly..
i almost fainted.

i grabbed my chest with my dirty gloves and kneel down.
jasmine screamed at me.
her tremdemous voice woke me up..
and she asked am i pregrant when i told her that i so wanna vomit.
i replied : "no boyfriend how to pregrant?"
then she went " "yah hor! hahaha. go drink water before you black out."

indeed.
black out mention was great.
i felt numb .. numb and numb!

too numb to realise that i was a third party all longg..


no offence to anyone and everyone mentioned above.
i don haf any meaning.
just those tots realy ran through my mind.

Jay and Fang Wen Shan finaly completed their song for the Olympics..
《千山万水》

so hope that the song will be selected by the Olympics Managment.
")

~6.05am sharp~


was in the midst of gaming with keith, jeff and tim..
where keith announced that results are outs!

you have no idea how fast my heart was pumping..
how cold my feet went..
how hard my hands where shaking..
for the 1st time in my life..
i was damn SCARE to look at my results silp!


the long awaited!!







IM SO FREAKING HAPPY MANS!
IMMEDIATELY SHARED MY JOY WITH ALL MY LOVE ONES!
IF U RECIEVED MY SMS..
YOU ARE BEING LOVED BY ME!
HAHAHAAHAHA!!
REALY DAMN HAPY LAR!!!


T11~!

TIME TO CELEBRATE!!!!!



justine is a hapy girl now.

very very happy girl!!

i dono why im doing this but..
yah!

im camping with keith and jeff now for my results.
this time rnd..
im realy freaked outs.

45mins more accordingly to keith.

best of luck, justine!

to step out..

i had a dating today.

it was awesome!

just that my pocket gained a big hole today.

but.. its all worth it lar~ =)

today is a hapy day.

=D

=(

i always HATE LAST EPISODE!!!

awaiting for the dvd to be outs~
please help me take a look out!! =D

斗牛。要不要..
damn worthy to watch!!
mike he is DAMN YANDAO!!!


oh.
and boyfrend is damn sweet.
always redundant to take pictures de him..
knowing that i had been feeling quite down recently..
decided to take a pic for me.
hes damn sweet.
so in love with him. =X
i love you, boyfrendd.

looking at this picture will forever wash away all my sorrows and pain!! =)

isnt he cutes? hee hee.

okay firstly.
my tagboard is up agn.
cos my emo period over liaos. hahaha.
as mentioned..
a brand new week.. a brand new start. " )
but still thank you regular for all these nights.
without you.. i dono how i can go through these awful nights.
CHEERS!! " )

alright. secondly..
just suddenly got the urge for loading this song.

I TOTALY HAVE

NO IDEA WHY!

yeay. i know and i understand.
i dislyk 5566 before policeman were in long pants.
but,
some songs just hooked back memories?


有没有那么一首歌，会让你想起我？
hahahaha.


finaly got the chance to be "SOT"!
its always people telling me to stop 放-ing 电 to guys~
well..
the feeling is sharp? runs through my whole body? face turns red?
andd..
all i can say is ..
PLEASE DONT PUT OUTS A PLUCK WHEN UR HAND IS WET!! -_-
you becareful ahs spens. "x


2 days more in getting results.
damn nervous lar!!
fairy god-mother..
please pray for me and all my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!




thai disco?? =X

ITS A BRAND NEW WEEK..

WITH A BRAND NEW START!

THREW EVERYTHING AWAY..
FAR FAR AWAY LE!! =)

----------------------------------------------------------

its been a while since i last watched a movie.
i remember myself waiting for MARCH to arrive, along with all the amazing movies.

now that MARCH is here,
but i have left with no companion.
=(
sads life im living.

BUT BUT ..
nevertheless..
im still gonna catch the movies!
even with myself! HAH!

therefore..
my movie list is up~~ " )

oh. sudden urge for SUSHI BUFFET TOO!! "x
after a whole week of losing appetite!
i should start EATING!!
A-HAHAHAHA!!

dear fariy god-mother,
will you watch with me??

me: 我拜五拿成绩诶。
mommy: 喔~是啊？
me: 是咯！很怕诶~ 不知道能不能 pass.
mommy: 如果 fail, 要读多一年啊？
me: 没有啦！半年而已。
mommy: 哦！那应该是一千多吧。。可以用 CPF 还吗？
me: 不知道诶。应该可以吧？
mommy: 那还好。爸爸的 CPF 应该还有钱。


-_-


功夫灌篮 DVD outs on 19 March 2oo8. =)

at times i just wonder..

WHAT IS SO

DIFFICULT TO COOK

A PACKET OF

MAGGIE MEE?!


this is so so so annoying mans.
i remember myself quitting to cook maggie mee sometime ago..
because the outcome its always so horrible!
till ME MYSELF and I refuses to eat~
i mean..
i used to love the maggie mee i cooked.
but .. some things just went hay-wired somewhere lar.


BUT..
where? o.O


hais.
me and my lonely sunday..
with my laoptop..
damn viwawa had been down since 9plus till 12plus
SCV and my cupS of coke.


life is so boring.
life is so boring.
life is so boring.

its the most looking forward day of the week.
yes.
its sunday, where im suppose to have my family day.
but it turned out to ADD ON the one of the days that im so bloody hurt.

its the West Coast GRC FAMILY Day..
and they have planned to go to the Zoo today!
not wanting to miss any outings with my family..
especialy to such a enjoyable place..
i blood-ly cancelled my working schedule..
blood-ly found a replacement to help me so that i can go with them..
blood-ly announced to the WHOLE family that I AM going with them..
and whats i got back in return?

me freaking bloodly

ALONE in this

house on this

SUNDAY!

i swear.
nothing is going smooth recently in my live.
when my friendshipS broke down and tore away..
i turned to my family 100%-ly!!
and what now??

WHY cant just any human being in this world appreciate whatever effort i have put in?
i DO NOT owe u people anything!!
and so why AM i getting all these shits back?!
darn!

now that i have no friendship and no kinship.
i will need relationship!

thats it!!

not feeling very well 2dae..
and that explains my absence for work.

from the bottom of my heart..
seriously,

谢谢你伟德~
没有你一次又一次的帮忙，
我可能已经死了很多次了！
谢谢你的照顾，
谢谢你的原谅，
谢谢你的包容，
谢谢你的冷笑话，
最重要，
谢谢你每次都非要送到我家楼下你才会放心回家~
尤其现在那对 "双胞胎" 还在逍遥法外！
哈哈哈。
真的，
谢谢你~！" )

talked to mommy yesterday about my dampen mood.
she is very supportive and kinda "splash cold water".
although the words came on harsh and strong..
but at least i know what she said is meant for my good.

“你想在才知道啊？人就是这样的！都是很自私的。
都只是会为自己想而已，哪里有管朋不朋友的？
在这世界上，朋友是假的，根本乃不久~
有事他们会第一个先跑，才不会想到你。
只有亲情才会有福同享，有难同当。
而友情只会希望你有福和他们同享，有难你自己当~“

some hurtful facts are cruel to accept.
but.. coming to a point of time..
我已经不能不相信了。

spent my friday night fruitful-ly.
beautiful princess she had turn into.
damn cutes looh i swear.
once she goes .. "娃娃姐姐" .
all my downs immediately turned UP mans!
omg.
i love babies.
mayb i should get one myself too. HAHAHAHA!

all the heart warming welcome i recieved from the family..
made me tot so much abt the past.
thankful that im still able to receive the same amount of care and concern..
even though the female lead is not me anymore.
thank you to each and everyone of the WEEs. " )

met up with kor and joonkiat slightly later.
talked so much so much..
and it lead back to friendship again. damnit!
same as mommy,
kor slapped me with the cruel reality facts and hope i walk out of the dark soon.
on the complimentary..
he says he wants to intro my his officer who is damn yandao and totaly my type!
HAHAHA!
where to find such a nice brother?
thank god for letting us to meet and of cos..
letting him to fulfill my wish of hafing a brother. " )
dou sitting at the behind seat is realy quite horrible
and to compliment you..
i've added something on my wishlist. hahaha.
love you kor.

so badly wanting to step into the working environment now.

IM DEAD.

VANISHED.

DISAPPEARED.

GONE-



don bother finding (calling/smsing/msning/emailing) me..
i wont reply.
i wont reply.
i wont reply.



above speech is performed and directed by justine wang.

its so nice to have such a heart warming call when you are about to die at work.
mommy rang me up to tell me that she left chicken soup for me ..
ask me to rmb come back home and have it.
it realy brighten up my damn tired mood so much.
thanks mommy.
ur the best!! ")

and SINCE..

its so hard + difficult + killing brain juices to decide whether to meet anot..

then forget it.

i will stay at home and accompany someone who deserve me more.

thats it.

im coming home after work at 4pm tml and staying home.

or meet yongshen?

or meet kor?

or meet gu's mother and ahbi?

or even .. meet BIA with PL!

that will be further decided again.

im damn tired and sleeply.

and you don need to know why.

im so going to bed right after i click on "Publish Post" follow by the red X button on the top right hand corner.

no explainations are needed.

everything is clear enough.

take me ki siao or wadsever.. i don care.

im starting to realise..

working life is more fulfilling than schooling life.

you wont be so much spoon-fed and you get to see more types of peoples around..

or even beside ya.

hor regular? ")

u must have met anot!!

i have removed my tagboard since you guys are SO lazy to tag after reading.

im praticising consistency here in my webpage.

not totaly mine dou. hah.

i cant create a nice webpage..

and i mostly cant do things on my own except for sleeping long hours.

BUT!

i can find resume format for myself.. all by myself. ")

good night.

keith tan! you still owe me a roundd of game!

tml evening~!

better turn up~~!

11.20am.

Resume sent to People's Association.

wish me lucks people.

")

the horoscope says..

"virgo people tend to bound from romance to romance."

therefore i dont think theres any wrong for me to ..
at least bounce from blog to blog rights? =X
and moreover 旧爱好是最美~
mans. this is not right!

ahh.
had adapted working back in kitchen already.
all my throwing of 小姐脾气 are destroyed mins after i entered the outlet and recieved every1's welcome..
awww.. 娃娃 is still wanted there har! heeZ~

the clique that i haf now..
are a bunch of lovely people whom i do not want to lose.
thinking that I, JUSTINE WANG WAWA might be the one drifting away 1st.
darling and bud requested to MEET once a week..
which i took no longer then 1sec to agree.
who knows?
hais. i tink im the only one free from workk to meet on all friday nights.
"(
i tink i will jus go E2max and rent a room, watch DVD myself!!
im not EMO!



如果可以恨你　
全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想（要）放下你　
還是掛念你

誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離



dear fairy god-mother,
please help to see that diver? is far away from his list.
do him a favour.. will you? ")