hey people.

i ve shifted.. again. =)

www.wretch.cc/blog/myaircastle

disappointed.

its hurts so much when someone you love don appreciate what you had done for them.
despite everything that i had done willingly for you..
i still recieve this kinda of treatment from you..
its bloody unfair.

misunderstand spells it.
im starting to hate whatever it cocking up between 2 parties ..
which lead to the darn misunderstanding.

be frank or not?
which will be a better choice?

if only..
the trust is between us is much stronger.

your choice and decision in handling these matters realy disappoint me.
i choose to run..
run far away from you.

farewell~

staying at home alone is not scary.
not at all.
realy.
because all i did the WHOLE day was to lie on my bed and watch tv.
*clap clap!*

i simply forget abt washing the plates.. *the only duty i was supose to do*
i simply forget abt the fun i used to have outside with friends.
i simply forget wads the meaning of "hungry".
all i remember and haf in mind was..
watching the TV and looking at my laptop!
hah~

back to the topic.
staying at home alone is not scary.. really.
until this happens.

you see.
seeing that my sisters dote on me so much ..
that the only task i need to do is to wash the plates.
my 良心 start to 发泄..
therefore i decided to CRAWL outta of my comfy bed..
and hit the numerous plates in the basin.

so.
i washed the plates and sang at the top of my voice..
when i suddenly felt SOMETHING dropping on my head!!
with soaps all over my hands,
i decided to continue singing and not freak out first.
*thanks. i know im calm. =)*

after washing everything..
i decided not to swipe wadsever was on my head using my hand..
because i remember myself hitting my own hand on the table when der was a cockroach on my hand.
therefore, calmly, using singing to cover my anxious-ness..
i walked to the mirror and looked at my hair.

*ttttttttttooooooooooooooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttt*


i swear i almost chopped

off my own head!

something is wrong.

why are my sleeping hours never enough??

o.O

starting of a fresh new week.
week 9 of 2oo8.

something amazing i did to start off the week.
i managed to wake baby up at 6am oky!
he successfully went up the school bus and headed off to sch lehs!!

*proud of myself*

alright. i shall stop here.

there goes my dream. sigh~

it realy doesnt help being whole day at home ..

with the stupid MSN saying this the whole day!!

* The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:

argh!

im sory.

told you, im not that perfect after all. =(

its been a long time. =)

hafen been hafing a good appetite recently.

but, today was an exception.

chocolate fondue after dinner. =)

6days before parents are back.

its offically over!!



thanks for everyone that accompanied me through these 3 years. =)




i heard your thoughts le.
i will wait.
take your time..
but hor? you vexed about wads ahs?? o.O

1045am,
dady and momy left four of us in Singapore for China.
for a week. =(
10.45.01am ..
i miss-ed them already.

fuck hack big girls don cry!
i cried!
CANS!!!!!

looking at JAY now doesnt make me feel better anymore.
go ahead, drunk me!!

and my stupidity did not helped at all~!

dear people,
PLEASE left me your contact number in msn or anywhere cans?
i stupidly deleted ALL my contacts in my HP when i actualy tried to COPY them from HP to SIM card.

argh! justine is stupid.

and stupid is justine.


i hope this does not shows any omen for WDD later.
*ai li lu ya + oh mi tuo fuo~*

once again ..

8 hours more ..
and i bid goodbye to


NGEE ANN POLY!!!


I DEFINTELY PRAY AND HOPE SO!!

feeling slightly very nervous for WDD later.
i basically did NO revision. =(
my whole mood was taken and seduced away by the television programs shedding tears.
darn.
i seriously pray that paper later will be identical to the feb07 paper..
so i can imply what i memorised! hah!
just like SS.

ahhh. whatever~!


goodluck classmates. =)

世界末日

想笑　來偽裝掉下的眼淚
點點頭　承認自己會怕黑
我只求　能借一點的時間來陪
你卻連同情都不給

想哭　來試探自己麻痺了沒
全世界　好像只有我疲憊
無所謂　反正難過就敷衍走一回　
但願絕望和無奈遠走高飛

天灰灰　會不會　讓我忘了你是誰
夜越黑　夢違背　難追難回味
我的世界將被摧毀　也許事與願違

累不累　睡不睡　單影無人相依偎
夜越黑　夢違背　有誰肯安慰
我的世界將被摧毀　或許頹廢也是另一種美

OMG!

WE WON!!!

IM SO PROUD OF MY SMALL CITY!!


WE WON!!!!!!


SINGAPORE

WELCOMES THE

WORLD,

YOUTH OLYMPIC 2010~!!!

this is what i call ..


pot calling the kettle black!



below is the reply when i told him that i wanna learn bike.





then y still ride on a bike and be 追梦人？

but nvm still.
i still love you, babe. =)
dou i realy dislyk your hair!

i met a nice man. =)

man: excuse me. you haf internet access?

me: errr. trying to get connected. hahaha.

man: OH!

*5mins later*

man: still cannot get connected?

me: yeay man!

man: hahaha. i realise now a days no internet cannot rites? last time we just need a calculator.

me: yar. hahaha.

man: you hafing your degree now?

me: HAR! no lar. dipolma~

man: OH! at?

me: Ngee Ann.

man: OH~ you are my junior then.

me: isit? hahaha.

*den we started toking abt Ngee Ann*

man: here alone?

me: yeay. *smile*

man: all night? not going home?

me: yar. here to study.

man: OH! im going back soon le. still need to work tml.

me: okay. becareful then. take care. *waved goodbye + smile*

i swear i wasnt trying to seduce him oky! im just being polite !

*he then took his bag and walked passed me. meanwhile, he paused and took something from the other table around me and put it on my table*

man: DER! a tip for you. *burst out laughing because it was a 5 cents!*

me: OH! hahahahaha. bye bye

*then he disppear outta my side*

but of cos!

i din call him nice because he gave me 5 cents.

its because ..

man: der! see you so sweet. this is for you.

me: OH! thank you thank you!

man: don wory. im married. HAHAHAHA~~

*crows fly passsssssssss*

HAHAHAHA!! see!!

i have got a 5cents and a free strawberry sundae!! =D

something to please myself sitting here alone at MAC overnight..

my world sucks.

everyone is giving me cold shoulder.

i hate my world.

dont walk in.

cos im ending mine.



don bother asking me whats happened.

8 hours more and i bid farewell to

System Security

forever.




dear fairy god-mother,
please help me to get a pass. =)

nites~

to you:

i thought i could always count on you.
i thought that nothing could come between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We will be alright,
We will be oky.

butI was stupid
and you broke me down
i'll never be the same again.

i wonder why it always has to hurt,
for every lesson that you have to learn.
i won’t forget what you did to me,
how you showed me things I wish i'll never seen.

So thank you for showing me ..
that best friends can not be trusted.
and thank you for lying to me ..
your friendship .. the good times we had ..
you can have them back.


so thank you. =)

from the bottom of my heart,
i apologise to you.
deeply. =(

i aint the girl i portray afterall.

i remembered all the promises i made,
all the things i promised that will stay forever,
i've failed to fulfilled them.

i once thought i could handle this problem as expected,
but seems that this is more than i can ever handle,
ALONE!

i remembered myself hating people to break promises they made,
but actualy,
im the one breaking MOST of the promises i made.
and this sucks.
horrible human i am.
im sory that i've hurt ya for so long.

sometimes, i hope i can jus vanish from this world.

thank you for hitting the ugly truth of me right in my face.
thank you for letting me see how horrible i was.
thank you for willing to let me know the truth.
realy.

time to get my revenge AGAIN~

my beautiful angel with the beautiful rose..

the best combination.

die die also wanna take picture de him..

nice flower there! =)

=P *bleah*

i dono why ..

but he aka BUD, just loves to take my candids.
not to waste his effort,
i ought to show his efforts to you guys..
the ugliest side of justine.




on the other hand,
justine can take nice pictures too!

i don care.

dear fairy god-mother,

be with me through the toughest times mugging..
hold my hand and lead me outta the dark disappear all the exams!.
bring me happiness fast forward this week!!..
and be my rainbow announce my freedom. =(.

please?
flower and kisses for you!! hee.

im working hard right

now 0502 at MAC!

yes, i am!

HOW ARE YOU IN LOVE?


You fall in love quickly and easily.
And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone.
You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily.
You bounce from romance to romance.

its time to hit the books again!
after all the chinese new year and valentine day over..
justine is back to mug and conquer the stupid exams again!

below is my plan for the following week.
SUPPOSINGLY is the word. =)

saturday - SS
sunday - go temple pray le den back for SS
mon - SS
tues - SS PAPER and continue with WDD
wed - WDD
thurs - WDD
fri - WDD paper and ...



I WILL BE FREE ..

TOTALY FROM NGEE ANN POLY ..

SCHOOL OF INFOCOMN

TECHNOLOGY!!!!

*catch me camping at clementi mac overnight*


choices tends to upset someone.
i came to realise that,
not everyone can be please TOGETHER in the same world.
all i ever wanted,
happiness for all my friends around me.
stay happy please. =(
ive read yours too




couting down .. 7 days! =)

hapy valentine day people. =)

how did u spent your valentine?
hope you enjoyed ur day.

be it whether you spent it alone at home watching tv,
or holding your valentine walking down the streets,
or meet up with your clique and romantic it over,
at least u will haf a memorable time. =)

what ever it is ..
next year will be better.
i promise..

personally,
i rather enjoyed my day.
be it the first part of the day,
watching a movie with you or
second part of the day,
romanticing with my precious two.
but, it could be better .. if you are here with me.

this time round,
i aint gonna be sad anymore.
its your decision.
all i can do .. its just to wait.
patiently waiting for your return..
back to me.
whenever you are ready to be back .. ..
my arms are always open.
for you.
but if you are not ..
den i will bid you goodbye.

wanna thank all the ones that made my valentine possible.


thank you gu,



thank you darling,



thank you bud,


seriously,
i love all the presents ive got.
they make me feel loved by you guys.
i know deep in heart that all the presents are chosen meticulously.
presents are specially sweet and heart warming when they are chosen for a special reason.
- old promise of giving me a valentine day watch.
- numbers that are related to me. 7 and 27
- things that i unintentionally mentioned that i wanna have.
- words that are engrave on the balloons and cards.

你们真的让我很被爱。
谢谢你们~ =(

sweetheart once told me,
" your 'bla' and 'bla' has both decided to leave you,
but remember..
your sweetheart will never leave you. "
this is also a sweet valentine present.

from all the little tings that accumlate up,
i came to realise that im still not ready for any relationship.
i love my freedom, my present life,
and i wouldnt wanna any change in it.
i also came to realise that promises are usualy broken easily.
be it is you or not.
the tot of being caged up is realy terrifying.

but, love is usualy weird and magicial.
your words hit on me came so strongly.
my tots began to wonder again..
therefore,
[to you] i take back the morning sms.
i hope this decision will not do you further harm. =(

with love to each and every of you,

dear fairy god-mother,
please help me to make my thinking clear.
please show that my decision will not harm him.

the one and only browine,
just for me. =)









even if u tink the appearance is ugly,
even if u tink the taste is horrible,
i will gobble every single bit up.
thats becos ..
its from you. =)


i love you 老婆！
thank you.
muacks.

it feel great to thrash everything outs.

thanks for willing to hear me outs.
and when i cry,
please do not wory.
all i need its just a smile from you .. and it will be over. =)


justine/wawa/ur PL/ur darling/ur bud is strong.




哭了，
睡醒就是新的一天。 =）

为什么我的快乐总是会造成另一个人痛苦呢？

=(

this entry is specially dedicated for you,


sweetheart. =)


a million and zillion for the wonderful gift.
you are very much appreciated.
from the bottom of my heart,
i thank you.
muacks.

PAST~

i remember learning this in primary school.
Present, Past and Future Tense.
present means something going on currently.
past means something that HAD HAPPENED BEFORE and can never be repeated again depending on own's will.
future defintely means something that IS going to happen.


谁没有过去？
在这世界上，没有人是绝对完美的。
如果每个人都活在完美的世界里，
那这世界应该会很无趣~

想一想，
每个人的想法和价值观都不一样。
可能有件事我觉得超坏，
但你也却觉得根本没怎样啊~
那到底是我对还是你对呢？
我相信这种事在世界的每个角落都会发生的。
只是看你怎样面对而已!

你的过去可能会是你一身的阴影，
或，它可能是害你失去莫个事情的主要目的，
但你还是要记得，
那些都已经是过去事了！

过去让过去~ =）

如果你是选择活在你那过去的阴影的话，
我只能说，
“不要傻了!”
活着的每一天就应该是开开心心的度过~
把那些不开心的全都抛到云霄之外！
就从现在开始，
新的一年，新的开始。=）

但如果你决定要从那讨厌的阴影里爬出来的话，
那，我一定帮你!
就算没什么我能帮的，
那我就会用最原始的讲法来告诉你。。
我会陪你一起度过这些黑暗的时期，
一直到你完全的康复！
一步都不离开~!

无论无何，
真的真的，
不要再难过和在意了，
这根本就是一件像芝麻一样小的事情嘛！
没事的啦！！


现在和将来才是重点! =)

HAPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
*its better late den never~*

this year new is much more better than i expected. =)

[Chu Xi]

tonned at ailing's place and gamble my 'countdown' off.

decided to 守岁 as its always a trend.

KO-ed around 7am in d morning ..

hoping to look good and fresh on 大年初一！

[Day 1]

dressed with the new apparels from head to toe,

everyone filled with the best mood and 出发了~

as usual,
my family has the 习惯 in visiting the 女方's side on 初一 ..

and finaly head down to both my grandma and god-grandma hse.

not forgetting to mention,
初一 is the day for RICHEST income~! heh heh. =X

and of cos.. what i looked forward most..

the chance to gather with my love ones.

unexpectedly,

i headed up to laopo's hse before catching my laogong's movie.

and TA DA~

quoted from eugene .. the tourist attraction. =)

huby movie was great. =)

[Day 2]

visit to daddy's friends hse.

its great to be lyk daddy.

staying contact with his seconday school frends until now.

i also wanna stay in contact with my clique till forever.

cans? =)

cj7 is not as good as expected.

disappointed.

*but of cos, own preference. =)*

[Day 3]

went sentosa with family. =)

totally enjoyed my day.

looking at beautiful flowers brighten up my day.

though i hate squeezing in the crowd!

[Day 4]

went to aunty hse for lunch,

and of cos her 拿手好菜 which no one can miss. heh.

den headed down to kent's house.

im seriously in love with the house designs..

especially his mini home theatre.

i wanna haf tt in my future home too. =(

den went to sweetheart's house to gamble..

as they stay REALY close.

hor bud? *winks*

--------------------------------------------

as i visit house to house,

i came to realise ..

every house is fixed with a PLASMA tv.

im seriously, EVERY HOUSE I WENT HAS IT!!

it is a trend?

or isit jus tt my family's problem??

DOTZ!

---------------------------------------------

dear fairy god-mother,

thank you for the 巧合 chance.

=)

such a gentleman he is.

THANK YOU DARLING!!

I LOVE YOU. =)

did u watch today's news?
im heartbroken!

how can any one be so cruel to a 2month old baby. =(
hate her!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot22xZqLMMI






dear fairy god-mother,
please make sure the baby will be fine alright?
please? =(

in life..
lots of decision has to be made.
someone once told me..
decision can determine your future.
therefore, make the right ones.

but personally,
i feel that decision do not always determine the future.
future lies in our own hands.
therefore, if you had made any particular decision..
live up to it.
fulfill it and complete it.
you have to believe that all FIRST decision is always the correct-er and better ones. =)

trust me.

don be sad anymore. =)

met some new friends unexpectedly.
they are unexpectedly nice..
and i unexpectedly get to know them. =)

unique and rare you are,
welcome to my life. =)


i always have the 习惯 in getting my clique to come my hse for steamboat every new year.
this year ..
its also 不例外~


too bad darling cud not make it.
and ders dinner after our badmination game.







i love my wife. =)


never felt so special being an aug baby ..

its karma.
wads done is slowly reflecting on me.
i see it coming.
cos ive done this before..
its too obvious.
im tired.

meteor garden is missing.
and im darn freaking sad over this.

life been so dull recently.
cos i chose to stay home and accompany family.
on the other hand..
i realise that once chosen this step .. you will haf to drift away from lots of ting.
lyk frends and even work.
but i haf totaly no regrets.

haf no motivation to go back work recently.
dou hafing lots of cool frends der.
but, hais~
if only this world has no hate and jealousy exisiting. =(

someone told me that he hates to guess ppl's tots.
i never knew how irritating it could be ..
until i got the taste of it.
i have done what i could,
but it things are going to show no improvmenet.
i'll walk away.
if thats what you want.
im tired of guessing and carrying hopes.

never been so not looking forward for chinese new year.

number of tickets confirmed for huby show on CHU YI midnight.
anymore backouts or additional ones?

hope the dinner tml at my place is a nice one. =)


you coming back this year?