this is unbelieveable.

daddy was sick on 除夕.
baby was sick on 初一。
ah jie was sick on 初三。
and its both mommy and my turn to be down on 初四。


whats an ox-picious year for my family.



谢谢你的那通电话。。

im feeling empty..
very empty without you in my life.
but,
theres no way im going to give in.
i know very well that nothing is going to change even if i do so.. ..

so wanted to blog in chinese for you to read,
yes. thats how desperate i wish you could know how i feel.
but decided not to do so,
cos i remember that you stop visiting after we are together.

its our characters im dealing with,
hence its the toughest and silliest thing to do so..

i had been telling myself to let things go..
and things are not like what i pictured it.
but, its kinda hard dou..
YOU, seen playful, seen flirtatious and seen not stable,
how could i ever committ myself to this relationship?

嘴花，心不花。
this is what you claim yourself to be.
i've heard and trying to absorb.

im so suffocating here by myself.
theres no one i can tell you!
no one in this world would realy keep a secret for you on free will.
i regret telling him my stuffs..
and i also learnt that no one could be trusted anymore.

back to the topic,
even with the distance between us,
i still don see your love anywhere.
as thought, this is the good time for me to consider about us..
i guess negatives are flooding the positives already.
and this sucks.
once without you by my sight,
my mind will start to wonder around..
i wish i could control. i wish i could stop everything and just go to bed.
hais.

问世间 情为何物


亲爱的，
我可以自私的要求更多你的爱吗？
我真的 爱到好累 好累 ):





为什么相处会比分开还寂寞？







我好像扭到手了。*痛*

HAPPY 牛 YEAR FOLKS! (:

no pics uploaded as im using office's com.
hee.

how was ur CNY?
hope it was fun yeay! (:


mine.. ..
was alright. (:
best part was to meet friends for movie!!
love the tradition and hope it will keep continuing.. (:

for this New Year,
im itching..
itching for MAHJONG!!
dang. to the extend that i actualy bought MJ set loh!
only disappointment cos its not PINK in colour!
*sob sob*
anyone? MJ PLSSSSSSSS!!!! ):





did you miss me?
did you feel anything weird or wrong without me by your side?
did you realise whether do you actualy needs me in your life?
how are you doing already?
why are you not smsing me oftenly?
don't you miss me?
who did you met up with yday?
did you have a changed of heart?
do you



still remember how i looked like?

few hours to go and we will happily welcome
BROTHER OX! (:

i was sitting in the car when i heard the DJ mentioning
"Brother OX".
den out of curiousty, i asked...
why brother ox? y not sister ox?
as expected..
no one answered this innocent question of mine!
so i continued thinking..
say if OX is a brother..
then what about the other 11 animals?

Mouse - SISTER as its smaller in size?
OX - BROTHER as mentioned?
Tiger - BROTHER as its bigger and fierce in nature?
Rabbit - SISTER as the bunnys are all females in casino?
Dragon - BROTHER as ah bengs all tattooed dragon on them as a symbol?
Snake - SISTER as there were Green and White Snake demons?
Horse - BROTHER as black beauty is a male? *or its not?*
Sheep - BROTHER? or SISTER or this? @@
Monkey - BROTHER defintely as guys are as playful like them?
Chicken - BROTHER? SISTER? @@
Dog - BROTHER lar! 猪朋狗友!
Pig - BROTHER? SISTER? omg!

does the above make sense to you?
hmmmmm..

anyway yar..
i uber love the ox year cos the sentences are so rhymed together!!
therefore to all readers:

HAPPY 牛 YEAR and have a OX-picious year ahead! (:


With love,
Justing aka 娃_

CNY is around the corner..
this is my favourite festive of the entire year. (:

of cos..
the best part of CNY is to recieve ang baos!
this was the only thing i looked forward for during CNY since i was young.
but as the years swingg past..
there is another reason adding to my liking of CNY!

(:
im starting to like CNY even more as i can get to gather with my relatives and also see those relatives that will come to my sight for once a year.
isn't tt lovely??
hahaha.

as i grow older,
i tend to understand the importance of relationships than the monetary beneficial to myself..
omg. im getting older and i MUST admit + accept!!

was blog hopping earlier on..
and i came across this friend of mine entry.
she is very strong. a strong lady.
shouldered with heavy responsiblities, she swallowed everything down and spend her life wisely.
i believe she has no turning back anymore..
not in life. but in relationship..
and my heart just tends to ache for her.

unlike us,
breaking off is NOT any choice she can make.
cos its different this time rnd.
at this age of hers, she has got my respect!
totally.. ..!!

to imagine,
people like me are still emoing over unhappiness between relationships..
emoing over the inability to get the adequate amount of love and concern from my partner..
which all sums up to me being real childish!

people do have a choice and they make their own choice..

i have never regret on mine,
be it him again and again reminding me that he cant give me any happiness,
and i might need to go thru tough days with him,
but..
once you are in, how do you get out? correct, laopo? (:

i always tell people around me,
i dont know what i've did to deserve such treatment.
thinking of that,
maybe is cos i have hurt numerous pple before?
or maybe is much more bcos i did not treasure people dearly before..
):
to you and you,
forgive me alright?




or isit ..
"too late to apologise?"

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Join in the FUN! (:

if you must know..

my mood is damn bad now.
to the extend that i can feel my stomache burning with fire inside.

i hate this.

how i wish i can stay in my dreams and NEVER wake up to face this reality!
damnit!

and the stupid beehoon costing at 4.80bucks did not ease my anger but bloody hell added on to it!


damnit!!
damnit!!
damnit!!

!!!WARNING!!!

this is a special entry to someone. =)
its for you, cos i care.



recently,
my LAOPO is very very hot in the market.
suitors in the Q is getting LONGER and LONGERRR.
even the most UNEXPECTED man is chasing after her!
even my boyfriend reads "ah po" till "laopo" when i ask him to meet my grandma for dinner!!


SEE!
she is HOT!
and she is HOT that's y she is my laopo..
*not vice versa k!*


THEREFORE,



WAKE UP!!!!!!
WAKE UP!!!!!!
WAKE UP!!!!!!


BEFORE ITS TOO LATE....

(:

damn.
i failed my FTT!!
need some apple strudel to ease my dampen mood. =(


spend an afternoon at grandma hse,
accompanying her thru the good noon.
as usual, she will always stuff us with food..
typical ahpo!
this made me so decided to wanting to accompany her everytime im free..
=(
my lonely ah po..
i will treasure now and forever. muacks.

i've bought 2 important gifts for my important 2!


horoscope mentioned that my luck is pretty up and down this year..
for like almost everything.
for relationship, family and career!!
@@
kinda freaky.

dang.
im lost at words.
bye.


im in love with "spot the difference!"
hee hee.

RAMIL BURGER IN THE HOUSE YO!
WUUU-HUUUU!!
=D
=D
=D

i love ramil burger.
how i wish they will open the stall here everyday! =)

was with changing password every 3months?
and was with needing to change password every 3months and canot repeat the same password you had chosen for the past 6 times.
KAOS!
its so IRRITATING!
how can i ever managed to squeeze how so many password every 3months?
wads worst worst is that..
they will LOCK your bloody account!
if you think this is the end..

HELL NO!!!
HELL NO!!!
HELL NO!!!
HELL NO!!!
HELL NO!!!
HELL NO!!!

BECAUSE..
IN TOTALY I HAVE 4 DIFFERENT PASSWORD TO REMEMBER!



WHAT THE HELL!

a brand new start of the new..
a brand new start of everything!! (:

to all my dearly friends out there:

im realy hoping that you guys can stay far far away from EMO-NESS
as it kills badly!
i hope that you guys can realy find your happiness somewhere in this horizon.
don think that its the end of the world alright?
everything happens for a reason..
he/she leaving you might be the perfect reason for you to meet someone BETTER.
and i meant MUCH MORE BETTER! (:

it takes time to heal..
every human beings knows that simple logic.
i believe you too..
just that some part of you purposly chose to forget this fact. (:

its alright.
i'll be here all the way till you are ready to move on.
hee.

jiayou jiayou jiayou.

with love,
justine. (: (: (:



shen, im sorry that i did not managed to squeeze time to meet you b4 u enlist.
i'll wait till you are out anyway. (:
*why does it sounds like gf waiting for bf? -__-*

egghead aka qixian, good luck to you!
hope that ur enlistment would be a total SMOOTH parcel in ur life.
lets meet up with jeff soon. (:


im tired.
i need my bed..

Buying air tickets online is so IRRITATING!
i swear loh!
for this minute is at this price, the very NEXT minute the damn price differs so much.
arghhhh.

seriously, im damn pissed with the system.
somebody, ease me!!

boyfriend is correct.
im not good at monetary wise..
when im rich, i spend more than im earning.
therefore i have decided!
$x00 will the the monthly amount im going to vanish it.
don care.
its for the better of MY future, since he mentioned he cant give me any.
(:


what happened if i bumped into you at streets?? o.O

dear all,

my P1i is sick. =(
please pray tt she recovers soon....
i cant survive without her....


Regards,
Justing

HAPPY 2OO9!! (:

a year had past and its the arrival of the brand new year..

isn't it amazing how the earth still gets to celebrate welcoming a new year? (:

2oo8 had been a bad and awful year for me..

im glad that im able to past and survive it safely till o9!

Thanks for all the amazing greetings and wishes you guys sent thru sms..

im equally glad that im not forgotten by you. (:

At here,

i would like to wish you all a

HAPY HAPY 2OO9

AND

MAY EVERYTHING

B SMOOTH SMOOTH

DOWN THE YEAR!!! (:

Love,

娃。(: