Wednesday, December 30
Monday, December 28
Thursday, December 24
Wednesday, December 23
Tuesday, December 22
Friday, December 18
after being honest about everything,
somehow,
you will feel the pinch of happiness out of the pile of disappointment!
(:
thurs = happy day!
was my morning shift = go out day!
another reason to be happy.
met B and did something which i have not done in ages.
MOVIE MARATHON!
totaly awesome experience @ Jurong Point! (:
Avatar-ed at 6.10pm!
Frankly speaking,
i wasn't realy interested in watching this movie,
despite the massive advertising around.
it just din caught my attention.
But, im fine with watching it lar.
especialy with such a nice accompanion. (:
Storyline is exicting.
teaches someone to love the forest, (in a way lar)
unexpectable. amazing. interesting. (:
worth catching it.
personal opinions, its gets abit boring till the end part.. just a little lar!
Rating: 8/10
Took a rest. Had dinner.
Met daryl and pretty joanne for the next show.
the long awaited show for me
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Bodyguard and Assassin-ed at 10pm!!
personally..
DAMN!
ITS A FREAKING NICE SHOW!
but B thinks otherwise. he prefers Avatar.
hmmmm.
its kinda obvious we belongs to the different era in life.
i love history. (only on watching part. NOT studying!!)
i don't know. it might just be me
every part of the story keeps me awake,
dying to know whats the ending.
looking at how our "ancestors" sacrificed for us like 100years ago,
theres always this pain in me.
yar. it might just be me.
im mad. i know..
just its just so frustrating that no one now appreciates what they did for us.
okay. abit off topic.
but, i think this movie sort of like misleading pple.
in a way that they focus Donnie Yen as the main actor,
which i think its not really right.
yar. Donnie Yen is very popular now,
hence featuring him on the posters will defintely attract more crowd,
but i somehow felt abit decieved! ):
got that serious mehs? you might questioned.
but the thing is,
I ONLY SEE SO LITTLE OF HIM!!
AND YOU TELL ME HE IS THE MAIN ACTOR!
):
DONNIE YEN NOT ENOUGH!
super disappointing!
so, 14blades better features more of him! (:
anyway,
if you like history
Rating: 9.5/10
but if you don't,
Rating: 7.5/10
(:
Tuesday, December 15
Saturday, December 12
its always heart warming to know that she is always at your side,
no matter what others might do to get inbetween.
perhaps,
they just don't understand what is the meaning of
i dont understand why you think she will cover for you..
hais~
anyway, yar!
thanks everyone.
im feeling alot more better already.
all set, ready to MOVE ON totally! (:
some super long ago's update:
Ninja Assassin-ed with B.
we missed like 15mins of the show,
all because stupid CAFE WORLD lar!
his food is more important than my happiness! ):
Rain's body is delicious.
*drooL*
but i seriously hate his hair! -___-
it cud be better if it was more tidy!
movie was fair enuf. (:
Twilight: New Moon-ed with B, Sheena Jie and Kevin.
Missed like 10mins of the show AGAIN!
because B TOOK SO LONG TO SHOWER!!!!!!!!!
as he was waiting for his FOOD IN CAFE WORLD TO BE READY!!!!!!
hais~
totaly gone case!
anyway, disappointed movie!
the 1st season is so much better.
like seriously,
期望越高,失望越大!!
not looking forward to season 3 anymore~
Thursday, December 10
刺猬
最后一抹的微笑在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终於丢掉
很旁徨很孤单是寂寞或悲惨
一个人该怎么办
像是刺猬般防范伪装得勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛得大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象..哭吧
Landy new's song, NICE! (:
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今天是早班,现在的我非常的累!
因为我失眠了!
整整一个晚上,连双眼都没闭到!
现在的我,好像漂浮在我的座位上,
两眼无神,好像昨晚去那里偷鸡摸狗了!
救命啊!还有9个小时要过,真的要了我的老命啊!
昨晚失眠的原因,我想你们都知道吗?
没办法啦~
事情发生了,心灵上有了感觉,自然的身体就有了配合!
谢谢大家的关心。
我和栋已经彻底的结束了。
虽然我可能在心理的莫一个角落还对他有感觉,
但是我们都很清楚,这就是我们的终点了。
是我提出和他分手的,
不是因为第三者,而是我们之间本来就有问题。
我们对爱情的看法都不一样。
栋是个木头仔,他不懂爱情,也不懂浪漫。
但因为我爱他,所以我接受了一切。
但是当时间慢慢过去,我爱得好累。
尝试暗示过他,叫他多多关心我,多多爱护我,
怎样说,我是个普通的女人,想要被疼,被爱啊!
可是他就会觉得我不了解他,而要他做出那些不可能的任务。
所以,我也只好默默的改变自己,
让自己忘了这些零零碎碎的爱戴。
又在这时,
他又决定回国,因为他要照顾家庭,帮忙家里的事业。
当时的我,是举双手支持他的。
但是,莫一个部分的我还是希望他可以不要遗弃我在这里,
可是我不敢告诉他,因为我不想让他觉得我很小孩子气。
不过,我最终还是改变了自己的想法,
逼着自己去放他回家。
但,我也有试着告诉他,
但是得到的回答是非常令人心疼的。。
就这样,栋回去了,
也渐渐的,
我们就变成里名副其实的 Long Distance Relationship!
刚开是的时候真的很辛苦!简直是要我的命。。
然后为了不让他担心,我又再次改变自己,
一直假装很坚强,很没事,
但是每晚都会哭着睡着,
因为想念真的一直在我脑子里绕来绕去。。
为了救这样的我,
我决定是时候把我忙着谈恋爱而放生的朋友一一的找回来~
把自己的节目排得满满的!
然后我才了解,
原来和栋在一起,我花了大概全世界的时间在他身上,
为了就是要做他完美的女友。。
我无时无刻都在改变自己,把自己变成他想要得理想情人。
到了一个阶段,我在想,
现在爱他的我,是喜欢原来的我,还是原本的我?
不久后,
我和 Jerry 见面了,我们之间也出现了以前的火花。
但是,我们并没有因为这原因而有什么“然后”。
因为我知道,我还是爱着栋的。
而 Jery 可能是一时的诱惑。
我喜欢坦白,所以我告诉了栋。
他气的很。。
完全不接受我的解释~
我说问题不是别人的介入,因为他根本就没追我!
而我更加没有要和他分手的念头。
是我们本来就有问题,只是每次我一提到,
栋就会发脾气,说我不理解他。
这伙。。 我要怎么办呢?对吧?
就这样,因为他不理解我,我提出了分手。
分手的理由,
我给了很多。
因为他觉得我给得不够。。
所以我说,因为我想要有一个稳定的未来。
而我知道,Jery 可以做的比栋好。
但是,气过头的他没想想如果真的是这样,
我干吗还跟了他那么久的时间?
我还很多次说他很烦,
因为他一直咬住我不放。
面对他的决心要挽回我,
我也说我对他没感觉了。
间接的,栋变成了另外一个人,一个陌生人。
他开始对我的生活,我的朋友,我的一点一滴感到非常好奇,
得了非常重的“占有症“!
认识我的人都知道,
这样的人只会让我更反感。
可是对于栋,我还特别和他说了两三次,
就是希望他会改,希望他不要让我讨厌他,
因为我不要讨厌他!
可是,一概没用。。。。
所以,我们久慢慢的疏远了。
对于我,
我伤了他很深。
但,他不知道他是唯一个我分手的时候没彻底的断绝关系的人。
他应该是被气疯了头吧?
他也不知道为什么就认定了我有了男友,
他说我的一举一动,不能让他这样想。
应该是他觉得我和 Jery 拍照时很亲密吧。
但是,我也说了 N 此,我们没有在一起。
可能因为我伤得他太深,所以他忘了我们之前的“信任”,
或者,因为我对其他的人动了心,
所以,他再也不信任我。
所以他就这样开始了他的新恋情。。
老天真的很会作弄人。
当我们3个都作了决定后,
这一切就发生了。。
朋友们都觉得我没差,
因为我已有了人追,
而那个人我也对他有好感,
所以我不应该有任何反应。
更何况,是我先离开栋了,伤害了他。
也是我先对别人动了心。。
但是我的理论是,
虽然 Jery 动了我的心,但是我还没准备好和他在一起。
但是,事实证明了,曾经最爱你的人,不会一直爱着你。
这里,
我很感谢 Jery.
他真的是个好男人。
我很谢谢他现在没逼我给他答案,
反而以质问我,关心我的心情。
很谢谢他了解我的感受,
很谢谢他愿意接受我对栋可能还有感觉。
很谢谢他跟我说了这一句 “我会等你”。
虽然可能又是另一个谎言,
可是我现在需要这一点点的安全感,
哪怕是骗我的。
他真的很体谅我, 很理解我现在在过的过程。
B, thank you! (:
现在的我,就是面对你们这些要 KPO 的人咯!
哈哈哈哈哈;
没什么好问的啦!
等我接受了 Jery, 我再跟你们说,ok? (:
so B, i don't care! i still insist romantic courtship! :P
说完了那么多,
心情好多了!(:
也该停笔了!
With love,
Justing aka 娃!
Wednesday, December 9
Saturday, December 5
you should know i had always been very fortunate to be in my current workplace,
because of my colleagues there.
a little different from others,
my constituency office consist of 2 offices!
mainly
Jurong Spring CC and Jurong Green CC.
Jurong Spring CC has a group of loving and caring aunties,
who are really nice and warm sharing! (:
eversince the 1st day i stepped into the office,
they had never stop showering their love for me.
though i show not much interested in my job,
but the people there are too good for me to leave them.
thats why people say,
u always need a balance in everything!!
and about Jurong Green CC,
there was a rather high turn over rate.
more new staffs are coming in to the office,
and im super happy with their joining. (:
beside that,
i love all colleagues there too.
they treat me like little mei mei. :D
At least for now,
im happy with where i am working! (:
purposly just to take photos with the Xmas deco and enjoying the lightings,