my namelist is outs..
its kinda long.. ..
but as usual.. expected is not as much of a confirm thing.
remembering 2 years ago? .. .. ..

anyway..
i hope you guys who had gave me a YES will turn up.
cos i had already ordered the food yar..
so dont put aeroplanes okee? =)

sometimes when pple cross the limit.. its jus freaking annoying.
please dont treat my kindness and helpful for granted..
im trying to control for the sake of controlling..
dont cross the limit.
please.. .. .............


girls need assurance..
when are you deciding to give me yours??

jay will be releasing his next album on AUGUST!

OMG!

ITS AUGUST!!


best birthday gift for myself..
from him. I BELIEVE!!! =P

i DO NOT know what happened to my MSN.
its so annoying cans!
especially when u DID not make it hay-wire yourself.
dang!!

超生气的！

anyone of you out der knows how to repair my msn?

HOW MATTER WHAT DAMN FONT I CHANGED TO..

IT KEEP APPEARING THAT SAME UGLY FONT!!


SOMEONE HELPPPPP!!!!!

did some surfing as i was so determined to understand the whole accident.
i was glad that google had finally came to a real help.

read up on her blog..
teared along as my eyes rolled down the sentences.
the bond they same..
the relationship they build..
is something so envy-ing to others.

she mentioned that she has no regrets becos she had treasure her eversince they 1st day they met.
how sweet..
isnt tt what friendship should be?

thinking back..
if i were to lost my life few months or a year back..
there will be many of you guys blogging abt me or for me.
mayb even darling and PL will finaly starts to blog.
But now.. ..
who can ever remembers any slight thing abt justine?
or can you even remember when was the last time we met?


i envy her.
i envy jerlyn.
she has such good and wonderful friends. caring and sweet boyfriend.
and i believe.. fantastic and loving family members.
she is great and these are her rewards.
despite the fact of not knowing you personally..
but i felt the pain he is going through now.
to imagine to be forever seperate from your true love.. ..
how freaking cruel.
give him strength and pull him through this, girl.
you will be remembered by him.. always and forever. =)
rest in peace, sweet.


if i were to have the same destiny like Jerlyn .. ... ........
these are the things i will whisper into your ears when im gone.

LAOPO: i hope our friendship had never turned sour.
DARLING: i hope our friendship had never turned sour.
PL: i hope our friendship had never turned sour.
BUD: i hope our friendship had never turned sour.
SPENS: i hope both of us has more chances to be 100% good to each other w/o any misunderstanding from our surroundings.
栋: 你看啦！每次都不要抱我，不要吻我！
现在不可以了， 是不是很后悔？
摸手时间。。永远不会到了。。。。。。。怎么办？




DANG! I HATE MY LIFE!





AHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHH!!!!!!

i thank all of you who asked..
im fine. =)
im fortunate enough to sit comfortable-ly infront of my laptop to complete that entry.
more fortunate enough to type in another entry now.

i wasn't feeling any bit of emo at that point of time.
maybe just emotional. =X
i mean.. after hearing so much..
there are some tots that you jus wanna express badly.
before i suddenly jus disappear from this world.. i tot i should let you guys know abt my tots 1st.
so simple.

but all beloved..
please ask tung to read that entry of mine if i'm suddenly gone.
simply cos he doesnt reads my blog.
hahahaha. so yar. =)

to you all that are suppose to be close to me..
laopo. darling. PL. hart. spens. and bud.
my words to you guys are simply the same.
i once loved you guys and will always love each and every one of you.
even though we aint as close as what we used to be..
but u guys are jus simply irreplaceable.
as for today.. im so heart dead that im lazy to pull strings back between us.
and i have decided to let things be this way.
i will be happy with jus smsing you guys.
i hope i will not be gone with any regrets dou..

But if im realy gone..
i will take all the memories with me.
and when u guys cant seems to contact me or i don reply.. don be sads.
i think its pretty usual rites?
keep u guys' mindset going on.. i'll never reply anyway.
so just treat it as.. "Aiya! she wont reply de lar."
leave me out during any gathering.. jus treat it as "Aiya! she wont come de lar."
and also ..
don read my blog cos .. "Aiya! she confirm never blog again de lar."
alright??
i mean.. everything is still going to be the same like RIGHT NOW!
=)

dont be sad.. cos you guys' happiness are my priority. =)
take my laughters and stored them in your mind.
whenever you are sad.. or when the atmosphere around you is dull..
jus recap my laughters and TA DA.. im with you. =)
leave a space for me when u guys gather.. i'll try to find my way there and participate.
darling and bud.. i hope you guys will NOT be afraid of me.
though im invinsible.. i WONT hurt you. =)

anyway since we are not as close as last time..
i believe tears will not flow too much..
memories will not say too long.
but i will be jus glad enough to at least hear
from you guys that..
"Justine was my friend"!

oh.
im alright if you guys all come in pink during my wake?
HAH!
*can i request to be in pink too?*


thats about it.
=)


remember if im gone..
each and everyone of you are suppose to live on well.
promise? *winks*
and.. forget JUSTINE not. =)

Dear All,

if i were to sudden disppear from this world..
i hope you guys will be strong and continue
living and njoy this wonderful world.
I may not be around anymore..
but i know somewhere in another part of this world..
i will still be there for you.

with any reason that i had left this world..
let me be.
im gone and i cant be back.

shed as much tears as you want..
but only during times when you miss me.
time will fade everything.. therefore hang on tight this time and it will be over soon.
please do not suffer from any serious depression or anything else.
people all comes and goes.. just treat that i went for a long holiday. =)

i would also appreciate if you guys can help me look after my family.
especially my baby.
i cant image living without his laughters..
he might still be too young to understand where his ah ger jie went to..
but at least let him know that i realy love him.
and im sory that i wasnt able to buy him all the expensives toys..
and bring him to expensive resturants.
i will do better in my next life.

not 4geting my parents..
daddy mommy.. 我愛你們.
謝謝你們多年的照顧和愛戴.
如果 我有那裡沒讓你驕傲的, 我真的很抱歉.
我知道你們一直很勁量的給我們最好的 我真的知道..
所以 真的謝謝你們.
來世 我還要做你們的小孩~ =)

接下來..
就是給我的你, 棟.
我也要謝謝你陪我走了那麼久的時間.
不知道我這封信幾時才會派得上用場..
可能那时候我們已分手了..
但最起碼我現在所愛的人是你. =)
如果我就這樣走了 你不要難過.
因為我們曾经擁有最美丽和最甜蜜的愛情.
你雖然看不見也模不著我 但是你要記得 我一直在你心中.
活生生的你心中。。
最重要 你要照顧好自己的身體 知道嗎?
知道自己身体不好 就要特别注意！
没有我提醒你早点睡 和 喝多点水。。 自己要记得哦！
不可以傷害自己 也不能做傻事 知道嗎?
我知道你不会啦 所以这句是程序。哈哈哈。
要開心的過每一天 連我的那份也開心的活下去. =)
眼淚會流 我知道.. 但是要適可而止喔!
下一任 一定會比我更好 所以你要有所期待..
雖然她可能不會像我一樣可愛 又體貼 .. *羞*
但是 你就不要嫌太多啊！
都跟你说了 想我这样的女友要哪里找？

没了啦~ =）

這次 我會很大方的讓你和其他女生玩耍, 牽手, 甚至擁抱.
我不會在意的. 真的啦. 哈哈哈..

但是 我想要有一個很自私的要求..
能不能讓有待在你心中的莫個角落? 就讓我靜靜的坐者就可以了..
可以嗎?
我答应你 我不会跑来跑去 *我们的暗号* =X
一定要記的我的樣子 我的臉孔 我的笑声 我的擁抱
我的吻 我的声音 我的吵闹 我的打鼾 我的一切一切
九连我生氣的模樣.. 都要记得~
凡怎 就是 不要把我遺忘掉 可以嗎?
讓我做一個你永遠不会忘记的一個人.. ..
就 你老婆我, 娃.
*不是 EH 啊！* =)

好了. 就這樣..
永別了 我的你.
來世我還要做你的女人..
愛你 真的愛你. =)
來世 見.............

to the rest that had walked with me..
stay strong yar?
remember my smile, my laughters.
i hate it when u guys are sad.. especially for me.
so cheer up!! =)
without me around.. your life will still be the same.
call my name 3times and i will be there for you. hahahaha.

LOVE YOU ALL..


good bye forever,
Justine aka 王娃娃.

girls need assurance..

thats a fact that no one can change.

blame up there .. cos we are meant to be like that. =)

thanks for ur assurance..

u wont know how MUCH it meant to me..

how MUCH i've been through and

how GLAD i know that its over.

thanks bud. =)

* punishment for ill-treating me! =P *

its so hard to please everyone in the world..

seriously.

you are not behaving like how your age of people should act.

and its freaking disgusting me off.

damnit..
get out of my life.. you are not welcomed AT ALL!!

chairman had decided not to tear down the wall..

dou im a slightly disappointed..

but at least he is still getting me a table. =)

thanks mr. goh.

and mr.seah is actualy organising an outing for all of us.

damn happy!! =)

dou my love ones are not beside me..

i still feel the happiness arnd.

im realy great to have such great colleagues and co hort mates arnd..

argh. im starting to love my life once again.

WELCOME BACK, 娃.

im backk.

hahahahaha..

from all the lazyness to blog.

i always have so much so much to say..

but everytime when i come online..

all my tots just go disappear like that! =X

wads to do?

age is catching up already. hahahaha..

anyway..

FREAKING go watch BATMAN - THE DARK KNIGHT!

cos its bloodly nice.

1000times way better than HELLBOY2!

im glad to have a movie loving boyfrend..

whos willing to catch all types of movies with me.

=)

let me see..

wads there to update.

OH!

maybe this?

YEP! i had permed my hair.

and it had been arnd 1 month le..

hahahaha.

if you dono abt this.. it meant how long u have not seen me.

deeply in love with my curls now. =)

i had been away from home.. away from everything..

been jailed in NACLI for 1week..

together with 29other colleagues i had bonded with.

and thats the 1 week i had total 100% of fun..

good times never last long.. =(