im so thirsty but im lazy to leave my sit and get a drink.

morning shift today again.
rushed a FULL day of doing some presentation slide yesterday,
hence decided to slack abit now 1st..
*labour rights.* (:

was reading through all the blogs i had in my list,
and i realised that a number of things had changed.
to my lost,
i think i have lose enough number of friends already.
isit too late to keep u guys coming back?

i dono where and what went wrong.
cos of no time?
not enough committment to each other?
not enough communication?
or simply cos, im not good enough for you to treasure?

i hate it when i feel the "lost" for friends.
shit!
daring to admit,
i hate it that i've lost darling, bud and irene for now.
lost even in the slightest manner that we are not like before.

i simple hate this fucking feeling.
damnit!
arghhhhh.

we were once so closed..
cos of misunderstanding here and there. we broke it.
i thought it was suppose to last forever,
or either i told we promised each other that it would last forever?
maybe it was my one-sided assumption?

it hurts exteremly more when i did something to earn you back,
but i got back nothing.
i know when giving, we cant expect anything back in return,
but....
ahhh! damnit.
i shall stop here.. (:


to you all, i miss you..
even if it doesn't means anything to you anymore.


please dont get offended if you are, cos im just speaking my deep thoughts.